for the first time in her life, she went for a walk, and surprisingly, everything went very well :3 It was clear that she was both scared and curious, and after about half an hour, she got out of the carrier and we decided to climb a mountain, where there were almost no people she was very brave, and she was a big smarty today <:33
i thought she wouldn't get out of the carrier and would be afraid, but in the end, she walked calmly, reporting on every bush and ant (≥◇≤)
my new boobs post!! this is the first time I've seen them lol, im very happy ( >.< ) I think this size is perfect for me >< what do you think? all I can think about is how much clothes I can wear now and still look sexy ><
i can't wait to take a sexy photo with my breasts ~ it feels completely different, I've never had such big breasts, and I'm shocked that I look thicker in t-shirts now and that many tops fit me, and that it looks SO SEXY by the way, my nipple piercing is still on me :p in the next post, I can show you a little bit.. do you want to see it?
not so long ago, something happened that I've been dreaming about for a very long time :3 i was constantly in doubt about whether I needed it or not, but I decided to go through with it, and now I'm happy ( >.< ) i had breast augmentation surgery, and I know that many people say they prefer natural breasts, but I did it for myself, and honestly, i feel a million times happier now.. It was important to me (≥◇≤) recovery process was long and challenging, both mentally and physically, but I feel better now, and I'm glad I took this step :3
guess what kind of cosplay I'm making a sword for :3 actually, this is the first time in my life I've tried to make something with my own hands, but I've seen enough cosplay on instagram and I also want to make it beautiful >< surprisingly, I thought it was very difficult, but! do I feel like im calm?? when I make it.. i cut the sword itself out of cardboard and filled it with foam inside, i used a mop handle for the sword handle lol :D now i'm trying to fill the entire surface of the cardboard with primer so it doesn't look like cardboard, but the problem is that it takes a long time to dry... later i'll paint it black and add details made of plasticine lol, it's really exciting :3 i hope i don't sound like a nerd T_T
lilies are one of my favorite flowers, but they are poisonous to cats.. I was worried about wisp and decided to buy fake flowers ;3 look how beautiful they are, I'm delighted ( >.< )
i recently did something I've been dreaming about all my life... i been thinking for a long time about whether to do it or not, and probably for a long time it was my complex before working here, in a sense, working here and you helped me love my body more( thankuuu) </33 and I was in doubt whether to do it or not, but the last few months i been seriously thinking about it, what if I if i had that, i would have been happier and more confident, i didn't feel comfortable in dresses and tried to choose baggier clothes for real life ~ i been a goth for a long time, and yes, i love taking beautiful photos, but mostly im a homebody who only wears oversized T-shirts lol :P and I decided to do something for my comfort, i feel better now, but im still very worried about the result ~
we went to the sword field together with @tinyjoy , it was stunningly beautiful and very cold.. I was horrified when I found out that about 200 thousand people died in this field, many people come here to take photos and we wanted to take them too, but we didn't succeed, I think we should go later and try again, I'm surprised how beautiful and majestic nature is here, after that I want to stay in the forest ><
yay finally doing cosplay on black rock shooter:3 I've been madly wanting to make it for a long time, but the price is biting, and finally I decided :3 I used ai for hair, but I like what happened heh :3 actually, when I first wanted to watch this anime, I came across hentai lol, and I probably watched it for an hour without understanding anything, because I was often recommended this anime because I look like a character, and I didn't understand anything lol, but then I found the original anime version :p now I'm preparing another cosplay for you, it will be on A2 nier automatac, i made cosplays for all versions of B2 nier automata, and I want to finish this one ( *>.<* ) I started making a sword for her on my own, honestly it works like meditation, I cut cardboard, I paint the sword, and I still don't know how to make the handle, but I think I'll come up with something :3 I've always looked with great admiration at cosplayers who do all the details, but I didn't believe in myself and thought it was too complicated, so this is the second time in my life I'm trying to do something with my own hands, don't be hard on me :p
the cutest photos from my best @tinyjoy >< it took about two weeks for this cosplay, because I've never tried to make a cosplay with my own hands, and it was hard for me to understand, I cut out boxes from other boxes and glued them with glue gun, it was like meditation lol ( >.< ) my next cosplay will be on A2, I hope you know who it is >< everything has already arrived for me, and I'm thinking whether it's worth making a sword heh :3
I’ve been gaming for as long as I can remember.. it always felt like my safe space, especially when life got too overwhelming (；▽；) I’d just put on my headphones and disappear into another world.. where everything made a bit more sense.. just me and the screen >< it felt like home in a strange way, and no one could reach me there…
now I keep dreaming about creating that kind of space for others too.. not for fame or anything, but just for people like me.. who sometimes need a cozy little corner of the internet to breathe and feel okay.. maybe I could be that for someone like games were for me once.. it would mean so much (｡•︿•｡)
I don’t really tell anyone this, but lately I’ve been looking at secondhand PC setups in my free time.. just scrolling like a weirdo haha… imagining what kind of mic I’d get, how I’d decorate my desk, which figures I’d put there first… it probably sounds silly, but I love daydreaming about it :3
usually i go to a local gaming club to play stuff my laptop can’t handle.. it’s cold there and noisy and I always forget my headphones T_T but last night something kinda clicked? I was playing with my friend and she suddenly said: “imagine if we streamed this lol” and we laughed.. but then I couldn’t stop thinking about it… maybe I don’t wanna play in loud places anymore.. maybe I want to be home.. with you.. playing something calm.. just us… maybe one day.. (⁄ ⁄>⁄ ▽ ⁄<⁄ ⁄)
p.s. did u know I collect figures? :3 they make me happy every time I look at them.. I tell u more sometime if u want (｡•‿•｡)
my little video about my birthday >< thank you all for the congratulations, I'm really pleased heh :3 I went to the farm with my friend @tinyjoy and I'm really glad that I went with her because she is very kind and sweet, we had a very good time :3 this is my first time trying this format, I would like you to see it with me ( >.<) I feel very embarrassed, my english is not the best, tell me if I should make more such videos?
I had a wonderful birthday, I am very pleased with your congratulations, and your support means a lot to me :3 my friend and I went to the farm and it was wonderful, I've never breathed such fresh air ahah, I slept so amazing.. I am a very anxious person and often can't sleep for several hours, and then I fell asleep in just a couple of minutes to the sound of birds singing and the waterfall( *>.<* ) my friend gave me a cute toy and a camera, and a cute bathroom set. I love sitting in hot water and can take a bath for hours at a time, I'm very pleased that she remembered this, even though I only said it once. I am very glad that I went with her, I was very happy that day :3 we also rode horses, and I hope we will do it again!! I'm really looking forward to it :3 felt like Geralt from the Witcher lol, I really liked it (≥◇≤)
heh, my friend took these picnic photos. :3 she gave me this cute toy, and now im sleeping with it ( *>.<* ) what name do you think would suit her?( > < )
it was probably one of my happiest days, I'm incredibly happy, I rode a horse for the first time in my life and I'm shocked at how much emotion I got from it, after all, nature is the most incredible thing in the world that exists, I rode a horse for the first time and at first I felt insecure, they explained a little to me how to ride and at some point we went at a gallop, the horse was galloping so fast that I was constantly jumping lol, I suspect that I was sitting incorrectly because after 10 minutes of such a ride I had the feeling that I would soon spit out my lungs and all my insides, BUT honestly it's such a pleasant adrenaline rush and in such a beautiful nature mountains, it's an incredible feeling >< I don't understand how people could live on farms, and then come up with a 7/0 job with minimum wage :( because it's so amazing that I would really like to live in a house in the woods ><
good morning :3 it was one of my best birthdays, I'll be home soon and I'll tell you everything :3 I was with my close friend, she model here too, and we had a very good birthday party together >< I haven't felt so happy in a long time, thank you for your congratulations, I read and smiled at them all the time, I I am very glad ><
Don't look at the mess from behind!!! my cat underwent sterilization, I was incredibly worried about her, and now she has to wear this collar for 10 days, she hates it and it bothers her :(a sad little white cat is sad because she can't jump on the curtains, bite my heels, run around the apartment like a rocket :(I'm worried about her, but I'm sure everything will be fine, and I hope this was her last visit to the doctor and everything will be fine :3
tomorrow is my birthday, and I'm very excited, in fact I've never liked birthdays because I celebrated them alone, and only a few birthdays were really good, this time I decided not to let sadness defeat me, and I have a friend here, she's also a model, so we plan to go to the mountains, to the farm, to ride horses, I am glad that I will go with her and not be alone, because Georgia is a new country for me, and I still have not made any acquaintances here.. in fact, I feel sad on my birthday just because I compare myself with others, it really eats me up, it's hard to understand if I've achieved something (as if I haven't), but still I finally started to accept the fact that people change, and even if I'm not happy with myself right now, but most importantly Keep working on myself, and in the future I will be the best version of myself. :3 here's a post of thoughts, I hope I'm not the only one with such thoughts before my birthday..
