RANT POST you can skip this if you'd like but I wanted to b..
Added 2021-10-11 19:40:48 +0000 UTCRANT POST you can skip this if you'd like but I wanted to be candid with you all. Most of my life, I've held myself back. Due to trauma in my childhood, which I finally started to deal with about two years ago, I have always felt like I was behind. Opening up this can of worms two years ago was a challenging hurdle for me. I was scared of the repercussion it could have on all aspects of my life, especially work. I've enough motivation to get by but never enough motivation and confidence to really push the envelope for myself Now, at 27, I am trying to push the envelope. I am trying to conquer my fears. All my years of holding back has pushed into a comfort box. I'm scared to leave that box but I know that I must. I can feel my mature self wanting to move on. I want to improve the parts of my adult self that have suffered due to my childhood traumas. I want it so bad but that means stepping outside of my box I've always wanted to share this with you all. But I was always scared to open like this to people. I want to try my hand at blogging so I can conquer that fear. With sharing this, I hope it helps answer for my times of absence and falling behind. I struggle with self confidence that I can be a self sufficient adult that'll survive in this world, especially as an artist. From this day forward, I want to be not so scared of being an online creator. Sometimes it feels very overwhelming and I lack confidence to hold my own out there. I want to be able to post more often, to create more often, to break out of my comfort shell that has been holding me back for me too long. I will continue with more tomorrow but for now, thank you for staying and reading this post. It means a lot to me. Back to our regular scheduled programming
