The past 15 yrs have been brutal. Parents divorce Alcoholi..
Added 2022-11-17 05:27:48 +0000 UTCThe past 15 yrs have been brutal. Parents divorce Alcoholic abusive mother Absent father and sisters Moving countries to try to get away from it Dealing with all the judgment surrounding my job Having PTSD, crippling anxiety and depression for over 12 yrs Too many instances of sexual abusive (some more horrible than the last one) Too much booze Trying to freaking make good friends and giving my all to them…being financially and emotionally abused by one and loosing the other one to horrible domestic abuse. Ive reached the bottom a few times and ended up in the hospital. I am strong, but I am tired. I found the ranch over a year ago and it gave me more hope than anything before. I am happy there, I am healthy there, I am myself there…it’s something I stopped feeling since I was 7. You cannot understand how much good animals, horses and this place in general does to me. The anxiety and issues to sleep go away instantly. I eat well, barely drink and I am full of energy. Having to raise a foal and train him/her will be the biggest and most beautiful challenge of my life. It’s a 30+ year commitment and you know what...animals never betray you. This is not a new chapter its a new book. I AM SO HAPPY. If you read all this you prob learned some things about me and I thank you for being there for me. Lets share whats to come. It will not be all easy peasy, but everything worth it is difficult I believe. You guys are my family...so lets wait and welcome the new little one together -Ginger
